The Tradition
Aster. Nasturtium. Delphinium. We thought
Fingers in dirt meant it was our dirt, learning
Names in heat, in elements classical
Philosophers said could change us. Star Gazer.
Foxglove. Summer seemed to bloom against the will
Of the sun, which news reports claimed flamed hotter
On this planet than when our dead fathers
Wiped sweat from their necks. Cosmos. Baby’s Breath.
Men like me and my brothers filmed what we
Planted for proof we existed before
Too late, sped the video to see blossoms
Brought in seconds, colors you expect in poems
Where the world ends, everything cut down.
John Crawford. Eric Garner. Mike Brown.
2014
That summer we learned the names
Of flowers strong enough to take
Heat and light and all elements
Classical philosophers thought
Could change us. They seemed to bloom
Against the will of the sun, which was—
According to news reports—warmer
On our planet than the sun guilty
Of sweat our fathers once wiped
From their necks and foreheads.
Baby’s Breath. Bird of Paradise. We
Had nerve enough to say names
As if our fingers in the dirt meant
It was our dirt. Cockscomb. Cosmos.
Earth hotter than ever, men like me
And my brothers took daily video
Of the garden we planted and sped
It faster to see blossoms brought
In seconds. Star Gazer. Foxglove.
Names like prophecy on our tongues
All summer. Eric Garner. John Crawford.
Mike Brown. Such color bright before
Our weeping eyes: orange, lilac, red,
And black. Then, to hit our lessons
Home, somebody showed us how
Simply, a dark flower—because it is
A dark flower—can be cut down.
1/30 narcissus i.
[parking lot/cut lines]
You’re so you’re so you’re so you’re so you’re so fucking hot.
You’re so you’re so you’re so you’re so you’re so fucking hot.
You’re so you’re so you’re so you’re so you’re so fucking hot.
//
like wanting to marry the wind crying past the opening of my cave, like wanting to marry the moon
How can I ever stop
looking at you.
We agree. The mirror.
The camera’s eye. I want
And want. Each phalange
brushing at your lips
like some insect is bothering you.
There is. Me. The white gaze
buzzing at the form of your
mouth, inescapable, replicated
across my compound eyes. Stamen.
Pistil. Drown me in you. Honey.
A seeding blossom, I am. A rotten fruit. Can I
borrow some sugar?
I already have. I’ve already
eaten it.
That’s the riddle, how to get your heart back
once it’s been consumed.
The world is dead again, covered in brown leaves
water that freezes as it tries to run.
Under the ice-cover whispering to itself, your name, your name,
the other world, me larval
under the ice and me watching myself crawl.
I know why you can’t love me.
You watching yourself in the clear melted pool,
you melting, meaning you aren’t you anymore either.
You are not you when you want me. You see
what I’ve done. Mirrored ceilings. A drowning pool
where you can love yourself. Through me. That’s all
I’ll try to do. Your perfect mouth repeated. Your hundred
fingers, each with a sharp and gleaming edge.
We both keep saying we’re alive.
Hundreds of sad boys have written you poetry,
haven’t they? Haven’t they? I’ll drown them all.
Here’s the panic. It doesn’t matter how much I want
something good to happen to you. The water stilled.
It’s still me doing the wanting.
A boatman who won’t take you back.
A mirror that’s more real than me.
Narcissus
How can I ever stop looking
at you
We agree The mirror
The camera’s eye I want
and want
Each phalange brushing at your lips
like some insect is bothering you
There is Me White gaze
buzzing at the form of your
mouth replicated
across my compound eyes
You’re watching yourself in the melted pool
you’re melting meaning you aren’t you
anymore either You see what I’ve done
Mirrored ceilings A drowning pool
where you can love yourself
through me Your hundred
fingers each with a sharp and gleaming edge
We both keep saying we’re alive
Hundreds of sad boys have written you poetry
haven’t they Haven’t they
I’ll drown them all
ice caps melting the flooded earth
Stamen Pistil Drown me in you Honey
A seeding blossom I am A rotten fruit
Can I borrow some sugar
I already have I’ve already
eaten it I know
why you can’t love me
The water stilled
A boatman who won’t take you back
A mirror that’s more real than me
ode to my hand
pill crusher // needle pusher
scalpscalp greaser // coconut oiler
of legs and the untouched space
beneath breasts // butcher //
baker // dishwater maker //
and if ten thousand ever fall
at my side //
hitching post
of God’s great
grace
bottle shaker // signal-taker
everything that has ever ruined us
passed through // so too
have the cures // you raised me
from the dead // sinister digits
there’s no single right way //
to push
deep into me and pull honey
from the lioness’ mouth //
your
palm grazing
her grizzle //
how the swarm
quiets for a moment //
the swollen
areolas
spread their own vein-
webbed fronds // oh girl // who else
rides me
safely through the Jerusalem
unsaddled //
on her simple back
or massages my slippery feet with her
whorled hair //
every gland exhaling
hosannas // I’ll never let
your tunic drag
the ground of want again
we can have each other
and live // Lazarus
unraveling
his spool
of silences
as the sisters blush like nipples
seaspray wetting the gauze
of lonely // savior // leading me
always & over water
to shore
ode to my penis
pill crusher // needle flusher
coconut oiler of legs
& the untouched space // beneath
breasts // butcher // baker //
bathwater maker
and when ten thousand fall
at my side // & the phone
goes dry // you are //
my hitching post
of God’s // great // grace //
bottle shaker // chalice faker
everything that ever poisoned us
passed through // so too
have the cures // you raised me
from the dead // sinister digits //
if there’s // a right way //
to stroke raw honey from the lioness’s
mouth // you stumble // but find it
every time // palm // grazing
her grizzle // how the swarm
quiets // for a moment //
the pupiled areolas
dilate // their vein-
webbed fronds // oh girl // who else
rides me safely // through // Jerusalem
// unsaddled //on her simple back
or massages // my slippery feet with her
whorled hair // I’ll never
let your tunic drag //
the ground of want // again //
we’ll have each other //
and live // like Lazarus //
unraveling his spool // in the sisters’
stunned silence // death oils slipping
from his skin // savior // you track
mirrored light into // my
wilderness // a little spit //
a little mud //
at the first touch
i saw men // monstrous //
as marching trees //
then // after a second touch //
// just // trees //
still life
to Lawrence Jackson, arrested in Chicago for wearing a dress, 1881
A figure in the frame. Black dress slit
up the thigh, a voice issues from the seam.
I sit in the dark & watch your hips.
Your practiced walk.
…
Somewhere, there is a photograph
of me in strapless dress. Me, flexing
my grin, my skinny arms. An image
won’t show you the fight
at its edges—my girlfriend shining
like a pearl, her father’s finger
on the shutter, the compromise
beneath the skirt.
…
If I can see you only in this moment
you are caught, what kind of we
does that make? Rows of dark bodies
hunched against the page, above
the page. In the archive of ink
& yellow trees, there you are
before the judge, offering to leave
the city, to walk away with nothing
in your pockets. No pockets.
This, you think, is what they want
from you. To look & not see you
standing.
…
What happens after that?
The trail ends with you, framed
by dark. They don’t want us to leave,
exactly. Instead, to not have to look
to know we’re there. Anything
can be made into a cage—
garment, sentence, cage.
…
I draw a frame around the frame,
a bright afternoon in Indiana
on your shoulders, dress
black & spun in a field of gold,
dress a knot of brazen black
birds, the body not a question.
still life
to Lawrence Jackson, arrested in Chicago for wearing a dress, 1881
A figure in a room. Black dress slit
up the thigh. A voice issues from the seam.
The papers call you an almost woman.
I sit in the dark & watch your hips,
your practiced walk.
//
If I know you only in the moment
you were caught, what kind of we
can that make? Rows of dark bodies
hunched against the page, above
the page. The strangest thing
is that you offered to leave
the city, to walk away with nothing
in your pockets. With no pockets.
This, you think, is what they want
from you. To look & not see you standing.
//
Somewhere, there is a photograph of me
in strapless dress. Me, flexing
my grin, my skinny arms. What an image
won’t show you is the fight at the edges
of the moment—my girlfriend shining
like a pearl, her father’s finger
on the shutter, the compromise
beneath the skirt.
//
They built a room & locked you in it.
The problem is they don’t want
to not see us, exactly. Instead
for us to adhere where they can’t
see, but know we’re there.
//
Already, you are queen of Chicago.
My head shakes somewhere
in the future—Envy? Disbelief?
I draw a frame around the frame,
a bright afternoon in Indiana
draped on your shoulders,
dress black & spun in a field
of gold, dress a knot of brazen
black birds, the body not
a question. Birds eat & birds fly
Clue
i.
“Hands down, mustard
is the tastiest condiment,” coughed Professor Plum—
his full mouth feigning hunger for the greens-
only sandwiches Mrs. White
laid out for Mr. Boddy’s guests. Miss Scarlet
hadn’t time to peel off her peacoat
before the no-frills food, which she declined, and a pre-cocktail
cocktail, which she accepted. Colonel Mustard
refused all fare, citing the risk of sullying his scarlet
and gold Marine Corps suit, then ate the sugarplums
that happenchanced his pockets like lint. Mrs. White
funneled the motley crew into the green-
house, where Mr. Green
was rumoring—his hand bridging his mouth to Mrs. Peacock’s
ear in an effort to convince the white-
haired heiress that the sandwich-making maidservant must’ve
poisoned their plum
wine. Mr. Boddy’s award-winning scarlet
runners initially amused Miss Scarlet,
the way one is amused by another with the same name. Mr. Green
thought it odd Mr. Boddy didn’t show, told Professor Plum
as much. “Here we are, pretty as peacocks,
and our host is nowhere to be found,” twirling his mustache
like the villain in a silent black and white.
Minutes into the conservatory tour, Mrs. White
introduced Mr. Boddy, who lay facedown in a scarlet-
berried elder. “This man,” Colonel Mustard
said, “is dead. I know death, even when it’s camouflaged by greenery.”
The discovery proved too much for Mrs. Peacock’s
usual aplomb—
she fainted into the arms of Professor Plum.
When she came to, he appeared to her the way a white
knight would look to a distressed damsel. Semiconscious, Mrs. Peacock
pointed to the deceased’s pet Scarlet
Tanager perched on a lead pipe between the body and a briefcase gushing green-
backs. Right away, Colonel Mustard
mustered up an alibi about admiring Mr. Boddy’s plumerias.
Mr. Green followed suit with his own white-
washed version involving one Miss Scarlet and a misdemeanor plea copped…
ii.
“Dinner is served,” said Mrs. White,
inviting Mr. Boddy’s guests by their noms de plume
into the dining room for a precooked
reheated repast. Miss Scarlet
passed the pickings, which didn’t pass muster,
to a rather ravenous Mr. Green.
Nobody faked affability better than Mr. Green,
waving his napkin like a white
flag, acting out the conquered in Colonel Mustard’s
combat stories. Here was Professor Plum’s
chance to charm a certain lady, catching what he called scarlet
fever. “I’ve seen more convincing peacocking
from a tadpole,” quipped Mrs. Peacock,
retiring to the library, green
tea in hand and a tickled Miss Scarlet
in tow. Mr. Boddy’s absence was so brazen it bred white
noise not even tales of exemplum
heroism, narrated by and starring Colonel Mustard,
could quiet—his presence, by all accounts, as keen as mustard
and showy as a pride of peacocks.
Like a boy exiled to his room, Professor Plum
excused himself, giving the others the green
light to do the same. Mrs. White
was in the kitchen scouring skillets
when she heard who she thought was Miss Scarlet
scream. Mr. Boddy’s musty
old library was a crime scene, his final fall on this white-
knuckle ride towards death. “For the dead,” Mrs. Peacock
said, “the grass is greener
on the side of the living.” While plumbing
Mr. Boddy’s body for clues, Professor Plum
found no visible wound—the would-be host appeared scarless,
despite blood haloing his head on the shagreen
rug and a bloodstained candlestick Colonel Mustard
recognized from dinner. Mrs. Peacock
avoided the sight, turning white
as the sheet with which Mrs. White covered the corpse. Plum
sick of the “poppycock” accusations, she sped into the starlit
night in a ragtop mustang belonging to Mr. Green.